Time is relative, that’s a fact. Sometimes life can change at the speed of sound, there are other periods when nothing outstanding seems to happen and everything goes slow.
It’s been a year since he (my ex-baby) left me already. It’s unbelievable! Now it’s time to make a balance of these 12 months. I’ve been thinking about it lately, although the conclusion is quite obvious: honestly, I feel fine.
Truth is I’m a girl of ups and downs in my mood, but this has been a constant feature in my personality. I also believe you always can feel better, but also worse. I’ve come to terms with myself, and learned a lot.
One year ago I was wasted, drowned in a sea of sorrow, thinking it’d take me long time to recover, yet positive remembering from my previous relationship I had been a survivor before. Felt like shit for some months, until everything was crystal clear. Once you reach the bottom of the sea, it’s time to take a run up to the surface, and start breathing in relief. That’s what I did.
This is not a post to self spam or show the world how tough and cool I am, because I’m not, but I had to move on, and reinvent myself, or at least, feel and enjoy things in MY way. And I’m proud I achieved it.
You can read my introducing page, This is just Me Myself & I, there’s no need to tell you the story of this blog, nor my past situation, again. As for my current situation, if you check this from time to time, everything’s been said: single, broke and in mood for enjoying every second in my life.
Of course I sometimes miss things of sharing my life with someone, and got low moments, but fortunately, in the era of technologies, you can get the phone and give a call to a friend, and I’m able to forget about shit messing in my head in a nick of time.
This is the most positive point in my life: my friends. I’d be nothing without them. Completely devoted to a bunch of people who have been by my side in my lowest hours, I feel grateful, to start, and would do anything at my hand for making them feel fine and comfortable. Friends have saved my life and made me realize I’m not the piece of shit I thought I was, and have encouraged me in any crazy idea or plan I have carried out.
What plans do I have in mind? To be honest I haven’t thought much about it. I’ve been quite chaos this year, adapting to my new life. Some of my routines have been defined, yet I have to work on much stuff. I’ll keep on working, go to gigs, write posts for my blogs, and have fun. Of course I’d like to travel, but since I moved on my own, plus the IRS punishment for changing jobs last year, and my social life, haven’t help to improve my financial situation at all. Hopefully, once I had paid my dues by Fall, I’ll start focusing on saving for next year holidays. I’d love going back to the States…we’ll see!
Enough of personal stuff, I really want to thank you all, for encouraging me to talk about my stupidities here, with your comments and your visits, my loyal friends for being by my side, and my family, a bit dysfunctional but supportive. Ah! Of course, to music and movies too! With all these treasures, nowadays I feel fulfilled. Love you!