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There are still a couple of things I should post, related to the past year 2011.

This could be named the year Toi was reborn, from the ashes to the top (well, not so much). Many events of different kind have succeeded, making of this, one of the most intense years in my life. I’m going to review the most remarkable moments, with your permission.

  • Hellhouse Sweet Hellhouse – I started the year and a new life at once, by moving to my current Hellhouse. I named it after Guns n’ Roses first rehearsal basement in Hollywood, where they used to live, play and bring chicks for having fun. Anyway, little by little, my cave has been becoming my home, with my personal touch in every corner, and living by myself in my own shelter, has resulted one of the best decisions I’ve ever taken.
  • My Iphone – yes, it might sound super snob but it’s my favorite toy nowadays, especially for taking those instant captures of my life I love so much. It came to my life in February and is awesome for all related to pix. Everything is subject to remain forever.
  • Lion tattooed – when I came back from Japan, almost two years ago now, the impact on me had been such, I wanted to reflect it in my own flesh, for good. At the end of 2010 I got my darumas inked, as a reminder of the way life goes, with its good and bad things all the same. But I wanted a lion protector, as I saw it at the entrance of a temple in Kyoto. The evil and mean must be far away, and the lion will be responsible for keeping them away. Two painful yet pleasant long sessions took place at Namakubi Tattoo, and Daan Verbruggen did an amazing piece I’ll never be thankful enough.
  • Eric – The New Hope. My brother’s son came to life in April, and it was a bless. It’s amazing the large amount of happiness and illusion a little creature can provide.  Everything related to this baby is exciting, and the way he’s turning into a little person is unbelievable. And the fact that my small family is one new member extended, makes all the meetings and events much more attractive.
  • Michael Monroe tour – Michael Monroe stopped by in Barcelona and Madrid to offer their amazing show, with his super band, with Ginger, Steve Conte and Sammi  Yaffa. We could talk to all of them, take pix, and Jaume and I managed to talk to the leader of our beloved Wildhearts for a while. The Finnish super blonde never fails, and confirming he’s one of the the best frontmen in hardrock and punkrock scene, left us babbling and seeking for more. I attended the two shows, that weekend becoming one of the craziest of the year.
  • Ryan Adams in O Porto – What can I say? Summer season started with my first flashtrip since my widow status, with my friend Veronica, just to see our beloved messy hair boy in O Porto at a theater, supported by Jesse Malin. That was one of the finest evenings in the year, and Veronica was a hell of a great trip partner. The city was ok, but I came back a bit disappointed. Perhaps I expected something more impressive. https://sincemybabyleftme.wordpress.com/2011/06/19/the-ryan-adams-experience/
  • Azkena Rock Festival – Where to start? I already said everything. Surrounded by my best friends, getting acquainted with new fantastic people such as Chema and the Locomia crew from Ibiza, and enjoying memorable shows such as QOTSA, The Avett Brothers, Kyuss Lives… The best ARF in my life. https://sincemybabyleftme.wordpress.com/2011/06/30/arf-2011-chronicles-my-lifetime-festival/
  • Turborock – Friday evening in Benidorm was just Epic. Witnessing D-Generation reunion was one of these dreams come true. we all got crazy. And let’s don’t forget Urge Overkill and all the crew drinking and taking pictures with Nash Kato. Awesome!                                             https://sincemybabyleftme.wordpress.com/2011/09/05/the-night-jesse-malin-was-the-king-and-i-had-a-beer-with-nash-kato/
  • My 35 birthday – hadn’t enjoyed such a great birthday in years, with great part of my best friends gathered at my parents’ enjoying a gin-tonic’d barbecue. Big time!
  • Madrid – my second destination. The reason? The Cake couple, Agnès and Kiko, plus one of my personal down to Earth heroes, Artie. Madrid is the real vice city, and I love getting wasted in Malasaña. This city really rocks.
  • New friends – I cannot name them all, but they should know who they are. Chema, Enric, Ricard, Sergio, Xavi’s… I love you all.
  • My best friends – I’m lucky to have such good friends, who’ve welcome me, and have shared so many great moments. The actual engine and fuel in my life.
  • Psycho Bar – Charly Raw, Ricard Ritxmond, and Gonzalo opened my current favorite spot in Barcelona in July. Such great nights I’ve enjoyed there, and many others yet to come.
  • Stockholm – another flash trip, with the purpose of attending a show of My Morning Jacket, with the added value of an acoustic set by Justin Townes Earle in November. It was a great weekend, and Stockholm was a delightful surprise highly recommendable.
  • Popu reviews published – some of you who usually read this Spanish magazine, noticed a couple of reviews from the Stockholm shows written by me, were publish in Popular 1 Rock. What can I say? I’ve been reading issues since I was 16, thus being published was an honor. 
  • Album of the YearThrough a Crooked Sun, by Rich Robinson  https://sincemybabyleftme.wordpress.com/2011/09/05/the-night-jesse-malin-was-the-king-and-i-had-a-beer-with-nash-kato/
  • Song of the YearLost and Found, by Rich Robinson
  • Gig of the YearThe Avett Brothers @ ARF; Ryan Adams @ O Porto
  • Movie of the YearDrive, by Nicolas Winding Refn, with Ryan Gosling http://toirock.wordpress.com/2011/11/08/sitges-film-festival-2011-pt-i/
  • Series of the YearBoardwalk Empire, by Terence Winter
  • Hottest Man on EarthRyan Gosling; Michael Fassbender.


Dears, I couldn’t end this year 2011 without a word.  You already know that’s not my style.

There’s plenty of time tomorrow to write about the highlights of 2011, which have been plenty, if the massive hangover waiting for me, allows.

Still I wanna say something, and thank you all, those who only read, those who actively participate (not many, but enough for supplying me with the amount of motivation necessary to go on with this thing), and everyone around, for making of this year one of the best in my life. We’ve heard enough of crisis, the world falling apart, and lots of crap. Leaving that aside, I feel personally fulfilled and glad to be here, alive and kickin’!

I took this picture of myself last night in bed, at 4 AM approx. yes, Instagram and the damn Iphone, apart from a quite acceptable period of high self-esteem, cause me to turn into a little narcissist, and I take pix of myself, fuck it! Because I see myself pretty cool.

I experienced a moment of, we could call it,  superior state of mind. I started to think I was in bed by myself, and many thoughts bombed my head. This is what I wrote then:

This has been the first year in my life I’ve been on my own. No soulmate, no regular sex, no Sunday evenings watching movies and cuddling under the blanket… No Trouble. Just me, my circumstances and a life of my own. I’m glad, grateful to my friends, and feel proud of being the way I am.

It had to be yesterday night, when something so straight was put into words. Maybe some people think I’m carrying a way of life poor and nonsense, or that I should find a partner to share my life with. It’s ok, but never lived my live so intensely, and never enjoyed so much. Any tiny thing is a bless, every day is a gift, every wrong turn a lesson. Being able to rediscover myself has been amazing, and sorry about this moment of self flattering, I’m a good girl, and I’m worth knowing. I’ll never say I’m perfect, cause I can be a real mess sometimes, but every mistake I make, which affects to someone close, I didn’t mean it.

All this said, agreeing with myself I’m fine by myself, and remarking that without my friends and loved ones I’d be nothing, I just wanna wish you an amazing New Year, and wish you the best. 2012 is gonna be a blast, better than 2011, and I’m positive we’ll witness a Guns n’ Roses reunion. You gotta believe! Hahaha

Bless you all, friends!!!


Love these days when you don’t plan anything in particular and all of a sudden everthing ends up wonderful.

Seems I’m passing through such period. Most of times everything comes completely improvised.

A couple of weeks ago I was meant to enjoy a peaceful and quiet weekend. One thing led to another, and I didn’t get any rest but had a  great time.

Same happened again last weekend. The only “obligation” I had, was watching a couple of movies in Sitges, at the film festival. Well, I went out for a quick beer with a close friend on Friday night, and we ended up pissed having lots of fun. On Saturday, the two films I was meant to watch finally turned into 4, enjoyed a nice Japanese lunch by the beach, and spent the day with some friends from Madrid. It was a blast!

My budget is a shit, I think I’m saying this every week, and still I’m doing plenty of stuff outdoors, but it’s true, believe me.

On Monday , after a shitty day at work, something usual lately, I was meant to meet this couple from Madrid, David and Marta (you’re great!), for a couple of beers before they were attending a gig. Thing is that we’re starting to know each other, or at least, we’re acknowledging our interests and tastes. Thus, they started remarking I had to go to the show with them, but really, that wasn’t a good idea considering I’m going to Madrid and my hometown next week for a break, which means I’ll be hanging out, meeting people and moving. Still, these people considered worth spending their dough on my ticket, and I ended up enjoying a great evening.

Alejandro Escovedo was playing just one show here in Spain. Considering his connections to Ryan Adams and Bruce Springsteen, I expected more audience, but you know how this goes, acoustic sets are not so appreciated by the masses, and Monday is not a good day for gigs either. Still, people from Madrid, Zaragoza and other places, travelled just to see this nice man.

With his acoustic guitar, supported by an awesome guitarist named David Pulkingham, Escovedo offered one of the most beautiful shows I’ve ever witnessed, and I mean it. Not only because of his wonderful songs, and awesome covers, same as other artists from overseas, he’s also talented on his speech, telling stories about his life which delighted everyone. At least I particularly enjoyed every single subject he talked about.

I had just listened to his album Thirteen Years a couple of times, but my ignorance about his work didn’t prevent me from dropping some tears at the end of the show, caused for the emotions this man easily managed to transmit.

I’m sorry and apologize for such crappy review of the show, but again, everything was unexpected, great time among friends, a beautiful show, and the feeling of having witnessed something great.


Two weeks ago I was telling you about Ryan Adams‘ new album coming out in October, introduced by the single Lucky Now, remember?

Ten minutes ago, a new video has appeared on FB newsfeed. I’ve just watched it once, and am already writing this post. Right now I’m super excited… I don’t feel like writing anymore, just want to share this with you.

Enjoy Ashes and Fire, my friends! Hope you like it!