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It’s been 5 years already.

yeah! 5 years ago this site was born. The reason perhaps was the most stupid one of all, but I thought it was a good idea. Till I stopped posting self-pity crap because it was too depressive, and then I started focusing on the things I live, or the things which hit my head from time to time.

Never been good at keeping a diary, I’m terrible at being constant except for music, my friends and drinking beer. I never give up on those, many of you can tell. Thus I’ve been absent for some time, perhaps too much, and many of you won’t be interested in what I have to tell anymore. And I can understand it.  But as long as I have energy and have to say something I will recover this blog and will write whatever sprouts from my mind, with mistakes and lack of sense sometimes, but with passion and love, not feeling a slave of this, not thinking of this as a burden. I might write often, or seldom, who knows, but I won’t apologize anymore. I got a life outside, even though many of you think I’m so hooked to social networks I don’t have a life of my own, or I expose too much. I’m much more than this, and really, I live, and enjoy, and suffer, and get upset, like everyone else.


This stupid statement said, after few beers and a terrible day behind, is just a confession that in the end does mean nothing, but I feel much better now, which is what actually matters… to me.

Thanks to all who’ve been supporting me on this.


Toi December

In essence 2012 has been one of the toughest years in my life, not because of personal relationships this time, the truth is that something as common as losing a job in a critic moment, while there’s  a terrible economic crisis striking the country, can affect a person to unsuspected limits.

My last period uprising trend was suddenly stopped at the end of March, and 6 months unemployment have brought back quite negative stuff I thought being overcome and forgotten. I will focus on that in a while, not today, I’m not in the mood, but yes, I can advance you my self esteem has become more vulnerable to start with.

Being this 2012 mainly marked by this 6 month period, I’ve also lost some control of myself, and chaos has been present. Perhaps I’ve abused on partying way too much, routines disappeared for some time, and mayhem has been remarkable sometimes. Nowadays I’m trying to get back on the right track, and this year turning point might help me to focus.

Still, not everything has been crap, there are lots of remarkable things I will never forget, thus, being a list lover, I will tell you about them.


My relationship with this online magazine started when I was asked to write a review about Shame, the film. Since then, I’ve written more than 30 articles (in Spanish), covering a wide range of subjects: squirting, speed dating, flirting at 35, sex while menstruation, Tarantino and his chicks, corsets, women and music… and I’m proud of being involved in this project and become co-editor. Moreover, since I’ve been writing for Norma Jean Magazine in Spanish, I’ve received invitations for collaborating in order sites, and a proposal coming from an independent publishing house. Through this magazine I’m learning lots, and getting acquainted with very interesting people. Really, a blast!

nj cover

 2.    ANDREA

Lou introduced me to the other half of Norma Jean, Andrea, in April, right after losing my job. Chemistry was obvious since the very beginning and we liked each other right away.

Andrea is a hard worker, a great student and a perfectionist, yet she has a great sense of humor, very compatible with mine. With Andrea the team work has made sense for real, regardless the distance, and I have to thank her for being so inspirational.

Andrea and Toi


When I first discovered Arianna’s work via Tumblr, I knew I’d have a piece inked by her the soonest.

She had these 3 days available at Swan Song Tattoo in Rome as a guest artist, and I booked with her right away. I only spent 12 hours in Rome, 6 of them at a tattoo parlor, and I got my lighthouse, my guide, so powerful and firm, it really encourages me to keep on looking forward.  I will never thank her enough, and she will never fully understand what she did to me.

my lighthouse by andrea


Artie and Mayra got married, and Kiko, Agnès and I decided to look for the most special gift we could give them: a wood carved piece of the cover of Harvest Moon album awesome Bryn Perrot especially made for the occasion. A unique piece for one of the most rockin’ couples I know, and love. The gift arrived late, the wedding was amazing, and I can’t now wait for meeting baby Ariadna as soon as she’s born.


These are the artists and bands I moved my ass abroad to see live performing. Amsterdam, Dublin and London were the locations, and as usual, the quality of sound of the venues was impeccable. Special mention to my hostess Sofia, my rock sister, for having me at her flat even though she was in the middle of her exams, and my travel companions Artie, Mayra, Javi, Ani, baby Celia, Gonzalo, Yolanda, Veronica and Joaquin. Anytime, and hopefully soon, friends.



Yes, this blog, my pride and joy, and my actual baby. This blog was here for me, with its arms open to embrace any crap I wanted to pour on it during these previous months of uncertainty. I’m very glad readers’ response is improving and, even though you don’t comment much (I like to think shyness is to be blamed), visits, subscribers and fav’s are remarkably increasing.

Thank y’all!


This has been the year my Hellhouse has received most visits, and I’m glad my friends wanted to spend some time by my side. Lou, Andrea, Sofia, Agnès, Kiko, Dave, Arantza, Mayra, Marisa and Julio…it’s been great to have you here. Hope you have felt at home, at least I tried you did. Also those hanging out evenings and nights, watching films, eating pizza, playing poker, thanks for coming too.

hellhouse by Lou

Ah! Before I forget, those days I spent with my all time best friend Diana, at her summer house by the sea, were incredible.


This wasn’t a resolution for 2012. I didn’t plan it in advance, although I was getting disgusted with so much compulsive smoking. it was a box a day, too much considering I had been a social smoker all my life till my “divorce”, when I started smoking like craze. On Monday I thought I had to reduce little by little scheduling my cigarettes, however by Friday I didn’t want to have even a drag.

My initial anxiety was translated into sleeping 3 hours, truth is that as soon as I got unemployed I earned weight. There’s still lot to do to get fit and lose some weight but I’m on the right way. I’m glad I don’t smoke any more.


It’s been 2 years and a half since I stopped eating meat (I never liked fish) and chose to become vegetarian, and this year, in order to enjoy a more balanced diet and also tasty meals, I’ve been looking for new recipes and improving my cooking skills. I still have some challenges in mind for next year, I hope to accomplish.


You might think this is something stupid, but thanks to FB and Twitter I’ve got acquainted  lots of new people, discovered artists and musicians, recovered old friends (Tani, so good to have you back!), and even flirted with guys. Thanks to ARF forum I’ll never go to a show on my own, news on Twitter, which spread lightspeed, attach me to reality even though I cannot stand TV news, and I know lots of tattoo artists worldwide thanks to FB. Remembering the main motto of Antonio Montana, with internet, THE WORLD IS YOURS.

The world is yours

Good times are to remember, bad times are to be buried, keeping only the lessons learned from the fall.

Hope 2013 is much better than this one. I wish you all the best friends!


Hi everybody!

This is a quick note just to thank you for being there, reading my posts, liking them more often than expected, and rarely commenting (encouraging your participation is my next target). Visits, stats and followers have awesomely increased in the last months, and I just can be grateful to all of you. This really means a lot to me, and encourages me to keep on doing this.

On the other hand the aim of this post is also to celebrate it’s been already 2 years Since My Baby Left Me, and since I decided to start pouring my thoughts,  tastes and stories into this weird project, initially believed as a therapy.

Many things have happened, many have remained the same, truth is, due to circumstances beyond my control, I’m not at my best, money and work speaking, yet I’m glad the way I’m living my life nowadays, being myself 24/7, and very proud of having recovered my passion for writing, realizing of the greatness of this vehicle to communicate and express what I have in mind.

Thus, it’s also time to remember my beloved Elvis, and his song Heartbreak Hotel, which was my source of inspiration when looking for a cool rockin’ name which also expressed the moment I was going through. I just love this starting line.

Two years with Since My Baby Left Me, wish there are more to come, and better.

Thank y’all!!!


I remember when my granny used to tell me that, the older I got, the faster time would pass by. She, as in many other things, was completely right, and sometimes I do feel very scared, as I see my life slipping out my control.

Some day very soon, I will tell you about one of last inspirations, Bill Hicks, the stand-up comedian, but in the meantime, I will quote a sentence that is coming to my mind almost on a daily basis: “I’m running out of time”.

Remember a couple of weeks ago I told you people were inquiring after my sleeping routine, sounding a bit worried about my heath ? Have you realized it happened as I predicted?  Eventually, I knew I was gonna crush, and that’s what happened last week…human body is a perfect engine after all, don’t you think?

Perhaps because my inactivity was so remarkable due to flu killing effects on me, and now that I’m getting back in business, this week comments and inquiries are related to my proactivity. Yes dears, apparently I’m a very active person, however I disagree, my constant feeling is that I’m great at wasting my time, which could be better optimized.

I don’t know whether I’m being conceit right now, nor how to call this exercise, but since I did it last month, I feel like repeating writing a list of the most remarkable achievements and activities done these last 29 days.

February, the shortest month of the year, however a tough one, still carrying the heavy burden of Xmas, and some of you of sales, on our backs, it’s not a very funny month.

1. Amsterdam and Rich Robinson. Truth is not all months you can start enjoying a flash trip to an European city with the major purposes of visiting a friend and attending a show of one f the core members of The Black Crowes. I feel very pleased and grateful to Sofia first, and to Rich Robinson  too. On the other hand, I’m actually quite proud of writing and then  transcribing visits and memories of those days to this blog, in order to share such moments with you.  And finally, the opportunity to collaborate with Popular 1 Rock Magazine by reviewing the show is, once again, an honor.

2. Considering I’m terrible at special occasions in terms of outfitting, I’m also glad that, thanks to my new fashion expert counselor, Eulàlia, I already got the perfect dress for my friend Artemio’s wedding. Cannot reveal the outfit yet, because he might peep, and it’s a surprise. You might wonder this has to be taken as a surprise. Well, believe me when I say I’d never looked so feminine in my entire life, so yes, we can make of this the event of the year. And hey! I dig, I look fine 🙂

Also, we also have the wedding present ready, and it’s a very special and amazing one, but again, it cannot yet be posted, or the surprise, and this is to be a surprise, would be ruined. What I can advance is that it’s exclusive and unique, as Artie and Mayra are, and that we, Kiko, Agnès and I, have thought of it with utmost love and tenderness.

I know you ain¡t suffering from panic attacks, but from here, you’ll be duly acquainted with The Rock n’ Roll Wedding.

3. I’m super glad and excited for being confirmed, while I was in Amsterdam, of an appointment I’ve got with Miss Arianna Settembrino in Rome, at Swan Song Tattoo, in mid April, to get one of her incredible pieces inked. I already talked about her super pro work. Positive she’s one of the current best tattoo artists in Europe. I really can’t wait to see the piece on my right forearm. It’s not that I’m wealthy all of a sudden, but referring to the subject I started this post with, time’s running and we have to take the chances as they come. We’ll worry about money afterwards.

4. Dj’n Session @ Psycho R’n’R Club. Can’t add anything to what I’ve already said about these sessions. First, I can play my own music out loud  in a bar, get free drinks, I’m surrounded by friends and people in party and dancing mood, and in this case, Psycho boys, who always make me feel at home…Can’t get enough of dj’n!

5. Very proud about being invited to write for Norma Jean Magazine. First assignment was a review on Shame, Steve McQueen’s controversial film, featuring Michael Fassbender and Carey Mulligan. Hopefully more posts to come.

Even though I don’t think this fact has to be added to the list, I’d like to remark that it’s been 6 weeks since I quitted smoking, not yielding. To be honest, I don’t feel better nor worse, I don’t miss smoking most of time, but I’m still sleeping weird.

Hopefully I will add a new activity I finished February carrying out, next month. I’ve recovered my rollerskates, so I can refresh my poor knowledge of inline skating, and improve my skills. Now that Spring is almost here, and weather is smothering, it’s time to hit the road, and start enjoying some activities outdoors, once and for all.

And yes, I also purchased my blog domain so Since My Baby Left Me has now its own identity. Really glad about it!

Such has been February to me, a bit shaken by flu last week, but a good month after all. how ‘s been your February?